Now uselessly lying around at home. I'm sick again. Weep.

My right ear gives me a buzzing sound and it makes me giddy. Haha, I thought I was turning deaf. The problem persisted for some time, so I thought it would be good to see a doctor. Yawn. It cost me $40! I hope those ear drops and nose drops work.

Microteaching tomorrow. Smmt on Saturday. Double sigh. I think things will be better once Saturday is over. Maybe I can continue with my game on PS2 then. Hoho. Or go and get some story book to read from the library.

I'm starting to feel giddy again. Argh. I hope I don't faint during my lesson plan interview or microteaching tomorrow. Oh well. I'll lie down now. zzzzzzz....

Haha. My blog is almost dead. This is the problem when I have to travel to boon lay. It is so super inconvenient. Yes yes, as you can see, I'm grabbing hold of any single opportunity to complain about the long journey. Oh well. I'm really deprived of sleep. Most of my time is spent on assignments. Sigh.

I hope next week will be over asap. I think I'll be damn high after smmt. Ok, this is a test which all math teachers have to sit and pass. I'm not extremely worried about the test. Nevertheless, I hope to have some time to prepare for it.

Some courses have already ended. Nice right? Yes, I hope my math lessons can end asap. This sounds so unlike me, but yes, I really hope they can be over soon. I was telling my mum the other day that I feel really fortunate to have teachers like kwan, quekie, goh and zuowei. Haha. They make learning math a joy. They are caring, motivating and I always look forward to their lessons. And I feel that they really helped in making me a better person. Haha. So they are wonderful teachers, aren't they?

I really miss them. I have been thinking of them often these days in order to sustain my passion in teaching. Haha. Because I wanna be great teachers like them. So you'll be wondering, is nie killing my passion? Oh well. In a way, yes. It sounds pretty ironical sometimes. Here, some teachers like to make this comment "we know how to teach, unlike most of the professors in university". Oh well, to me, my professor in university know how to care. They know how to push me to attain greater heights. They don't shut me up in class.

I remember during my first year in nus, I pointed out my tutor's mistake in class, and we debated over it for like five minutes. At the end of the day when I reflected on what I had done, I felt quite guilty over it. I thought I shouldn't have spoken to her in that manner. And I thought she would hate me and condemn me for the rest of the semester. Very much on the contrary, she was quite nice to me from then on. She did not pick on me. Neither did she do anything to make me feel awkward in class. She was very approachable when I asked her questions. Yes, it put me to shame to even think of her as someone who will condemn me for that incident. From then on, I consciously made the effort to be polite to my tutors and lecturers.

I used to be worse in jc. kwan probably had condemned me a hundred times if he wanted to. Haha. But the thing is, at the end of the day, no matter how many times we had debated over the math problems, I still respect him as a teacher, and he still thinks I'm a good student. To me, only good teachers are able to forgive their students and forget about their nonsense, and they can return to class the following day to teach the students whole-heartedly, and care for the students.

Haha. So... I'm just super glad to have such nice teachers, and never encounter people like ***. Lol.

It's been almost a month since I last update my blog. Haha. Yes, I'm busy. What's new right? So busy that I'm deprived from time to sleep. Nowadays, I can sleep on the train, on the bus. Basically, I just need to sit down, and I'll fall asleep. Give me a bed and I'll fall asleep within seconds. Amazing huh.

I'm looking forward to end of November when I can finally take a break from NIE and start writing on my paper. Probably by then I'll receive news from NUS about my thesis examination. Yes, I certainly hope it is good news. Haha. I think I'm kind of worried subconsciously, such that I dreamed of my supervisor scolding me for lousy research.

This nightmare was probably a consequence of my daily experiences in NIE. I think my tolerance level is quite high, but still, some people managed to go beyond my threshold. Oh well, I'll not elaborate further.

There's so many upcoming events. Assignment deadlines are approaching. Presentations. And bazaar next week. I think I'll be quite stressed on Monday. Well, I hope everything turns out well. Have been occupied with GESL stuff these two days. Each GESL group is supposed to brainstorm on a CIP and implement it. Non-trivial ok. It is quite depressing to see the lack of teamwork sometimes. Luckily I'm not the leader. Certainly, I'm guilty of not displaying great teamwork. Haha. I wanted to skip the meeting at Pasir Ris this morning. I didn't of course. Haha.

ok, time to rush assignments...