Been busy and stressed recently. I guess I shall not start ranting bout my school work, for I don't know how to put an end to it.

Below is a photo taken during my parents' wedding anniversary:



Haha. I'm not sure how my parents will feel bout me posting their photos up, so I think I'll just make do with a photo of the flowers and cake. A closer view of the flowers:



Nice flowers right? Haha. I felt rather proud walking around toa payoh with that bouquet of flowers, despite having my hands full of stuff and carrying the heavy school bag. :) Yes, and despite having a flu.

I thought the flowers were really expensive when I went to place an order two weeks ago. But now I think they're worth the amount. :)

Some updates since last wednesday:

1. I'm still alive, despite catching a new flu and feeling really stressed about my school work.
2. My first presentation for seminar module was over. My throat was quite bad and I had to resort to using a microphone. Everything went relatively well.
3. Kay Jin left S'pore. Sob. :(
4. I'm still sick. My cough is 6 weeks old.
5. MOE finally contacted me. I should be signing the agreement letter soon. And soon, I'll get my stipend. :)

I'll sleep now. :)

I have got 15 minutes to write about whatever I want to write.

Had two days of lessons. Though I could understand most of the materials mentioned in class, I couldn't help feeling slightly stressed over the amount of workload. I had been slacking too much in the past three semesters. Now I've to suffer a bit to pick up the momentum once again. Sigh. And the fact that my close friends in nus have all graduated, and I'm very much left on my own, and the thought that I've to finish the whole masters course by next early June kind of haunts me.

Still, it is heartwarming to see some of my friends in school in the past two days. At least, I am not alone. :) I forsee a busy year ahead, with little gossips and laughter. I was the one who chose this path, so no matter what, I won't let myself have any regret over it.

Time is up. I have to go and do something to my thesis. Haven't touched it for the past two days. Sigh. I'm going crazy.

Tuition was called off (coz my tuition kid was unwell, oh my gosh, I hope I didn't spread my cough to her). I can now spend some time on my own, before the start of a new semester. Argh.

Went to watch limit of love yesterday. Great movie. :)



One climax after another. In the midst of the excitement and anticipation, humour was inserted at just the right spots and timings. There's a bit of romance in the air, but the main bulb of it was about the rescue of the four survivors. To me, the most touching part of the movie was the never-give-up attitude , as well as the I-must-go-back-and-rescue-my-team-mate belief posed by those carrying out the rescue operation. I was deeply touched towards the end of the movie, when all of them wanted to get to the sunk ship for rescue operation. Because four people were still stuck inside, and two of them were their team mates.

I tend to relate the movie to reality. And realized something is missing in my life.

Life is never perfect. I'll treasure what I have, and do my best to make life better. :)

I've gotten all my modules. Haha. Gotten all the graduate modules one day after I registered online. And Dean's office approved the undergraduate module three days after I filled up the form manually. One of the three days was a public holiday. Haha. When everyone is cooperative, things can really go on efficiently. :)

Started printing out my lecture notes. Haha. Printed enough to cover the first few lectures. I'll print the rest in school, since they provide papers and printer for graduate students. Haha. Sounds good, isn't it? I'm feeling a bit excited over the stuff which I'll be doing this coming semester. Haha, this excitement is probably going to be replaced by stress when those assignments and presentations start coming in.

Still waiting for them to inform me about the agreement letter. Hope everything can be settled as soon as possible. Can't wait for the day when I can bring money home and say "hey mum, this is for you." Haha.

Yawn. The medicine is making me drowsy again. Argh. I'm still coughing btw. But feeling much better now. Hopefully, I'll recover by next week. Will be going out this evening and tomorrow evening. Shall bring my camera along and take more pics. I don't forsee much use of the camera in the year ahead. :( I have developed some of the photos I took during commencements, gatherings, the Hong Kong trips and so on. They turned out quite nice. Haha, so my camera is good. Nowadays, many places are developing 4R photos for 20 cents each. :)

Was typing this long post bout wish list this morning. Error occurred while I press the 'publish post' button and the whole post disappeared. Erm. Too bad then. Things beyond our expectations happen. No matter how disappointed we are, or how reluctant we are to accept a fact, we still have to adapt and live with it.

Haha. Looks like I'm over reacting. :) But still, I believe most bad things which had happened so far are in fact blessings in disguise. No matter how bad a situation is, we can always benefit from it somehow. Like what my lecturer Prof Shen had said, a person is stupid, not because he makes mistakes. He is stupid, only if he makes the same mistake more than once. So the key is, we should all learn from our mistakes. By rectifying them, we benefit.

In studies, in work, we can do corrections. However, in friendships and relationships, if we had devoted trust and love to someone unworthy, the pain when we realized our mistakes might be unbearable. The question is, should we withdraw our input completely, or should we wait, and hope that one day, a miracle will happen, and the trust and love turn mutual.

Under all circumstances, I will withdraw the input. That's a logical choice, isn't it? What's the probability for such a miracle to occur anyway? If the probability is high, it won't be called a miracle. How much to withdraw? Depends on situation.

At the same time, think of the people who stood by us in times of trouble. Are we depriving them of a higher input of love and trust? Why don't we give up devoting more time and energy unnecessarily on people who are taking them for granted, instead, devote them to people who truly care for us?

In friendships and relationships, sometimes, it is difficult to say who is right and who is wrong. We can fault the other party for not inputing enough. On the other hand, it could be our fault for inputing too much. It all depends on where one draws the line between noble and stupid.

Recently, I was pretty depressed over some thing. I guess a good thing bout the damn cough is that, it forces me to spend time on myself, to reflect upon myself. Now that I have thought through everything carefully, I believe I'll recover from my illness soon. Haha. I think there's a link somewhere. I probably fell sick because I was too drained up mentally.

Week 0 starts tomorrow. Gotta get ready for a fierce battle ahead. I hope my fuel can last for one more hectic year. :)

Going off to revise my jap and listen to my new SHE album. :)

Feel like getting the following sony ericsson phone:


Sony Ericsson W700i

Shall go down to SingTel to have a look at it next week. :) Looks like the classic plan in SingTel is still the most suitable. I seldom send sms, so 360 is more than enough. I only call my mum and my supervisor, so 200 minutes free talk time is enough too. Haha.

I'm looking for a phone with radio and mp3 player. Most Nokia and Sony Ericsson phones have both functions. Somehow, none of the Nokia phones look attractive. :( In comparison to the sony ericsson phone, the nokia phones in the same price range have smaller internal memories. Many of them do not provide free external memories too. And their cameras are 1.3 mega pixels instead of 2 mega pixels.

Shall see how again when I check out the phones. And wait till I get my stipend. :P

The cough syrup makes me super drowsy. And it somehow makes me hungry too. :( Sigh. I feel weak.

School is starting soon. And I have this disgusting 5-days week timetable. It's like donating money to smrt everyday. :(

Matriculated. Luckily I brought my scroll. Should have reminded my friends to bring theirs as well, and they wouldn't have to make another trip down to submit their copies.

The cough syrup made me drowsy the whole day in school. Almost dozed off while waiting for my turn during matriculation. Finished my lunch in less than ten minutes so that I could spare some time for a nap before consultation with my supervisor. But couldn't sleep. Luckily, I was still kind of alert throughout the whole consultation. Energy was totally drained at the end of the consultation session. And before I could go home, I had to make a trip to co-op to photocopy stuff for my tuition kid.

Shall wait a few days before I bug MOE for the agreement letter and my lump sum allowance. Hehe. In two weeks time, I gonna stop getting allowance from my mum and start bringing money back. :)

Quite excited bout the modules I gonna take next semester. And at last, I no longer have a CAP to maintain. Haha. I'll be seeing some of my friends in the junior batch for AODE, Bertrand (and maybe Yanxin) for harmonic analysis and the rest of the masters students for seminar module. The only module which I'll probably be alone is computational mathematics. Haha. Maybe I should start advertising it to Nicholas again.

The drowsy effect of the cough syrup is working on me again. Argh. Before I go and rest, just wanna thank everyone who expressed concern over my illness for the past few days. :)


My friend got this for me in Disneyland. :)