Hadn't done anything for my masters thesis yet. Oh my gosh. My supervisor gonna kill me. But then, mmm, it's holidays isn't it? Shouldn't I just relax for say, a week? :)

carmen the tai-tai?
ok, I realize I can't be a tai-tai. Simply because, I'll get a bit sick of shopping after a few days. Ya know, I think tai-tais can shop day and night and never get tired of shopping. What's more, I seldom buy things on impulse. And when I say I'm not going to spend any on clothes today, I really won't get any new clothes.

carmen the housewife?
if I ever become a housewife, I'll be a super lazy one. According to my mum, I only tidy up my room once a year. Haha. I spent the whole of today's morning cleaning every single corner of my room. As well as the computer in the other room. Everything is sparkling now. Haha. Now I know why most housewives don't own much stuff. Like my mum, she only has some clothes and some jewelleries and some combs. Because the more things you have, the more things you've to wipe when you do housework.

carmen the singer?
this is totally out of point. My singing sucks. Haha. I'll go out of tune every now and then. Haha. But I don't care! I sing just to release stress. I listen to music when I study. And somehow, my brain thinks by following the beat. After some time, I'll roughly know the tune of the song. I never look at the lyrics to learn the song.

carmen the child?
I realized I've this pair of brand new mashimaro soft toys, and decided to put them in my dad's car. Was carrying them in the lift, and everyone in the lift was looking at me. Mmm. Hey hey, who say big girls can't play with soft toys. Mmm. Maybe I should get a small sofa for my soft toys to sit on. Haha. And I just bought a doraemon comic the other day. Currently reading harry potter books. Not something people would expect from a 23 year old.

carmen the math major?
no doubt bout this identity. Haha. What else can I major in, if I don't major maths? Physics? Engineering? Statistics? And the list basically stops here. What happens if I'm in fass instead? I think I'll still get a second upper. But then, I'll probably mutter to myself everyday that life sucks. If one is in a place where he/she doesn't really belong, it'll be a real pain and struggle. I could see some of my math majors struggling. I myself had this feeling when I was in lower sec, as well as during my chinese lessons in jc last time.

carmen the matchmaker?
yes, that's what i like to do. But according to my record, I've never succeeded. I think I'll close down this business for good. Haha.

And combining the above, you get the monster. For one, I can never really qualify to be an angel, because I like to gossip. And probably the only reason to why I haven't been condemned so far is because I know how to keep my mouth shut at times. Haha.

Having slacked for so many days (still less than a week though), I think I should settle down and start work on my thesis). Just finished reading the newest harry potter book (which is bout one year old already). I very much preferred the simpler storyline in the first three books, where there isn't any death, and not much suffering. I was engrossed with this book of course. But reading the death of Dumbledore made me sad. I want the good to survive. But even in reality, this is often not the case. Some people still side for the dark. They distort the truth.

Everyone makes mistakes. Even the wise Dumbledore made the wrong mistake of believing in Snape.

Time to go. Happy Labour Day.

Went for the appointment briefing this morning. This is the second time I went for it. And apparently, I gonna attend a third one next year. Gonna view all those powerpoint slides again. And sign all those documents again. Sigh. I can't help but feel that it's a waste of my time, and a waste of resources and manpower.

And so, I went back to school after that. And my supervisor called. Now, I've homework to do. Haha. I thought I've to print a copy of my thesis for my examiner, because I offered to. Then I saw him on my way down to the math lab. Haha, and he said a soft copy will do. :) He must be in a good mood after killing those poor guys who took graduate analysis two yesterday.

Since I've more than 200 pieces of papers to spare, I decided to print out the wavelets notes. I'll probably touch a bit on wavelets for my masters thesis. It's certainly more 'chim' than my gozilla honours thesis. I think, maybe I'll get really busy next year. Just hope that at the end of the day, every bit of effort is worth it.

Saw a few of my friends in honours room just now. Oh man, I think I'll really miss them next year. :(

Going to sing ktv tomorrow. I think my voice will suck. Haha. That's the norm, isn't it. Have some plans for the next few days. After which, I gonna start working on my thesis again. Like what my supervisor said: we must work very hard. I've to finish everything before June next year. His past students had one more month, because they need not go nie right after. Oh well well, we'll see.

Exams just ended today. Woohoo. :)

ok, I didn't feel exceptionally high after the paper. Neither did I jump up from my chair and shout "I've graduated!" Nevertheless, I'm glad it's finally over. And I'm ready to go on to masters.

While I was trying to upload my honours thesis this evening, my damn computer didn't allow me to log in. Tried numerous times. In the end, I had to get steve to upload it for me. Steve, if you're reading, thanks a lot a lot a lot. It was a bit frustrating when I couldn't upload the file and I actually wanted to go over to nus to upload it myself the first thing next morning.

Since I managed to work my father's computer (he's away in Shanghai), and I was able to view my thesis online, I can save the trip down to nus tomorrow and go shopping with my mum instead. Haha. When is the last time I went shopping with her! I think it's last semester or something. I think I'm like a full time mugger during term time. But the thing is, I'm only taking two modules this semester. It's not like the past when I've six modules, and my timetable is like 36 hours per week. Oh well, I'm just less efficient now, that's all.

That's why I hope I'll pick up the momentum and be effective once again during my masters year. :)

I just got my masters package from nus today. That was the first thing I found in my mailbox when I came home from ICA building (to collect my passport) this afternoon. The thickness sure look a bit intimidating. Shall read it when I've time. This reminds me that I've to email moe to update them on the status of my masters application. And they're taking forever to get back to me regarding their approval of my masters application.

And I gonna go down to moe to sign the agreement letter this thursday. When they finally approve my masters application, I'll have to write in to defer my appointment in nie. It's damn troublesome. And sometimes, it is these little things which put me off bout having signed the bond in the first place.

When they mixed up your name, your gender, your teaching subjects, and when you received many letters from banks asking you to apply for their leadership training programmes, you'll naturally tend to wonder, did you make a wrong choice last time? Had you given up many better opportunities for an organization which didn't appreciate your presence.

Too late for complaints now. If I knew this is going to happen, I would have worked a million times harder on my gp, and I might now have already graduated with a masters degree. But then, the four years in nus haven't really been that bad an experience after all. So well, maybe everything is just a blessing in disguise. :)

So now, I'll just hope that moe will approve the masters application. It's time they send me a reply.

What do you think of my new blog layout? Haha. I wanted to find one with lilo and stitch initially. But none of them looks half as nice as this. Haha. I like both stories anyway. And I remember I cried while watching lilo and stitch. If I remember correctly, I cried thrice during the movie. Everytime they said "ohana means family, and family means no one is left behind".

Nevertheless, I think my parents are like martin (if I remember the name correctly), that's nemo's father. :)

Brain saturated with formulas now. I gonna memorize everything for tuesday's exam, since there's no help sheet. Actually, it's good in a sense. At least I don't need to spend time writing one. And no need to consider which proof to copy down and which not to. I'll just mug everything.

Haven't seen my tuition kid for two weeks. I hope she's doing fine. She's busy with her CO rehearsal, wheras I'm busy mugging. Looks like we aren't doing much bout our plan to let her jump two grades for her june common test. Mmm. As long as she is willing to work hard, I'm sure things can still go according to our plan. :) I'll drill her full force after her performance. I must think of a way to make her concentrate. If she concentrates more, I bet her careless mistakes will be reduced.

Yet to read my harry potter book. Shall do so after my last paper. I've two days to read the book before returning. Two days to correct my thesis and upload it. And I gonna go and print out a copy of it for my examiner one of these days. Because I promised him one. Problem with my big mouth. But then, the department wanted a hardcopy from us initially, and I would be printing another one for him out of pure convenience. Now the department just want us to upload one and that's it. Hmm. Since I promised him, .... shall print a copy for him when I go back to return my library books. Shall settle everything after going to MOE on thursday.

I'm getting excited bout my masters year somehow. I seriously wonder why. But anyway, I've already thought of what modules to take. :) I think they'll be interesting. Too bad I gonna take them alone. And I hope everything fits well into my timetable. I wonder if I've time to take up German. I always wanted to learn this language in nus. At first, it couldn't fit into my timetable. When it was possible to be fit into my timetable, I was afraid it would drag down my CAP, and took modules that are easier to score and less time consuming.

Shall see how. It's mugging time again! :)

Exams start tomorrow. My last paper is on the 25th. Haha. That's when some of my friends have not even started their exams.

I'm really glad that they let me know that my masters application got through, and they'll offer me sponsorship if I obtain second upper honours. During the early days of my exams preparation, the thought that this is going to be my last semester dramatically increased my level of 'sianness'. Now that I know I'll be going on to graduate studies, it dramatically brings back some energy. Haha.

The masters year gonna be quite hectic. But in some sense, that's also the case I hope it'll be. Like what my mum said, I've slacked way too much these four years. Haha. Not that I didn't put in effort in my studies, but the thing is, I was quite relaxed most of the time for most of the modules. And it somehow bothers me a little, because I think I'm not as productive as compared to last time in jc. When I'm not productive, I tend to grow fat. Haha. Of course, looking on the bright side, it means I'm enjoying what I'm doing. If I'm growing thinner each day, it means I'm putting on a struggle, which isn't a good thing.

So, anyway, I hope I can regain some momentum next year, which will certainly do me good when I go nie next year. Also to prepare myself for the long hours I gonna spend in school next time when I become a teacher. Looking at my workaholic nature, I'll probably spend 12 hours in school each day. Argh.

Now, I'm 23. :)

Thanks to all who sent me birthday greetings on sms yesterday. A big thanks to all those who took time off their busy schedules to go and choose birthday presents for me. Haha, and a big big thanks to those who celebrated my birthday with me.




Maybe I'll take a picture of my presents when I have time. Haha. Except the box of ferrero rocher of course. I bet the whole box will be finished by the time I've time to take photos.



And also the cake which was already eaten.



8 days to my first paper. My last paper is on the 25th. Deadline to submit final draft of honours thesis on the 27th. Will start on my masters thesis after that. ok, provided they want me, that is.:)

Finally done with the report and finished correcting my thesis. Gonna put them aside for the time being and start revising for my exams. My first paper on the 21st, and I have not even started revising. Sigh. Luckily I only have 2 exams this semester. But for approx. theory, the stack of notes looks really intimidating. :(

NUS has not yet gotten back to me regarding the application for masters. I'm simply not ready to enrol in NIE this June.

I'm turning 23 soon. As usual, I don't feel exceptionally excited bout the day. I've more or less forgotten that my birthday is coming, until I started receiving smses from friends asking me to meet them to get my presents. But, I feel really touched that my friends remember my birthday and taken time off their busy schedules to get presents for me. :)

Haha, before I go and pack my stuff and get ready to mug, here's some photos I took in school:

friends in the canteen


my approximation theory class

Anyone knows where I can develop my photos at a low rate? I think I've hundreds of photos waiting to be developed.

ok, time to go.

The nus email outlook web access looks much nicer now. Haha. I was slightly impressed when I saw it this morning. That's the thing bout having lower expectations. :)



I brought my camera to school yesterday. Had fun taking photos with my course mates. In fact, I missed the chance of taking with my closer friends in school. Because I was getting tired in the evening, and I forgot I had my camera with me. Duh. But since I gonna bring my camera with me for the rest of the week, I'll just hope that I gonna see my friends again.

At last, I gathered enough courage to request quekie to take a photo with me. Haha.



We took this after yenchin's talk. All of us, including the guys, were mesmerized by his outfit yesterday.



Had a good time yesterday. At the expense of spending more time to think bout the tricky question in my thesis of course. But at least, I managed to do something constructive for my subdivision report this morning. Tomorrow, I'll spend more time to think of my thesis. Gonna settle everything by this week. So that I can start revising next week onwards.

It almost slipped my mind that my birthday is in less than ten days time. Until my friends asked me what I'll like to have as birthday present. Indeed, I'm touched that this group of friends remember my birthday. Especially that we don't even get to see each other often this semester.