I changed my blog layout again. ok, the reason is I've gotten quite sick of purple colour, and all along I prefer white backgrounds. Yes yes, I know I should be mugging this book on subdivisions right now and not spend time on unnecessary things like changing blog layout. Haha, but rest assured, it only took up twenty minutes of my time. Haha. It's so different from the past, when I've to spend two days to churn out one webpage design layout. Times have changed. Now I just go and get a layout and credit the person.

Gonna submit the thesis on 2nd March. Finally. To me, this workload far exceeds 3 modules. It's more like 5 level 4000 modules combined. Lots of time and effort devoted, and right now, I can't really tell you how rewarding is this experience. But certainly, throughout the process from reading, researching to writing out proofs and theorems and typing them out, I've gotten lots of help and support from my supervisor, parents and friends. In the remaining month before my final talk, I've to read up on fourier analysis and lebesgue integration. For sure, my examiner will ask me related questions during the interview. In two months time, the project will be over. Two more exams to clear, and then I'll graduate. :)

Gonna take a nap, then go to school to meet my supervisor!

The website I visit almost ten times each day: google.com It's quite helpful for my research. And it cleared some of my doubts in approximation theory.

Places I frequent in school: my supervisor's office, honours room, science library, s13-05-06, math lab. If you notice, I have excluded the canteen. That's because I only have lunch in school twice a week. Just for this week, I've already made 4 trips to the science library.

New idol for this semester: Prof. Shen. Don't worry, I haven't forgotten bout the rest. I have not disbanded the rest of the fan clubs.

Frankly, I don't quite enjoy flipping through thick piles of books in the library. Not to mention that I've to climb up to get those books at the top shelves. Hence, I was really thankful and touched whenever people went to the library with me and helped me flip through book after book. :) Haha. It's like even though I carry umbrella in my bag, but I'll still feel grateful to whoever that offers me an umbrella during rainy day. Now, even though I can look through all the books on my own, but a helping hand is certainly appreciated.

Haha, so I've found some additional meanings to why I say I like librarian guys. :)

Finally a free day. Some time for me to catch up on tutorials. And fill up the application form for masters sponsorship. Another stack of forms. This time round to MOE. Sigh. I think it's quite unlikely that I gonna get the scholarship from NUS. Looks like they gonna give to people who are doing phD as well. In any case, I'll just try my luck.

To obtain sponsorship from MOE, I need at least a first class honours. ok, that's like the prerequsite. After which, there's still an interview. So demanding, yet they didn't even state how much allowance they gonna give us during that year. I thought this kind of thing they should at least state in bold. Haha.

Two referee letters to settle. Shall hand one to my supervisor. Should I give the other to my examiner? Or quekie? Or Prof To again? I'm such a troublesome kiddo, going around troubling my lecturers. Haha. But still, I think I'm kind of sweet to them. Haha.

ok, enough of my nonsense. But on a more serious note, I think NEL sucks. ok, this isn't bout the discomfort of train rides, long waiting time or whatsoever. The thing is, when faced with technical difficulties, the station master and staff should make proper announcements to the public. For outram park station, in particular, such announcements should be made at the east-west line station as well. On monday, when problem arose in sengkang, the whole nel was affected. Technical problems aside, inconvenience aside, the staff could have make things slightly better by making announcements. This would avoid passengers transferring from east-west line walking all the way to the nel station, wait for ten plus minutes, listen to one announcement then disperse. Many passengers weren't able to find alternative transport to their destinations. ok, that's excluding cab of course. The thing is, they could have provided shuttle buses to certain destinations. Of course, this too boils down to a problem with the local public transport system: to get from point A to point B, there's little direct routes. When one route fails, you're stuck. For instance, apart from the NEL, I can't get to sengkang. Even from orchard road, I can only get home by train and bus 65. Bus 65 is damn infrequent btw.

On days when I've exams or presentations, I'll never take the NEL.

The presentation is over. I admit, I was quite upset that I wasn't able to answer my examiner's question. The answer was vague and incomplete. And during the presentation itself, there were some mistakes here and there. I need to brush up on my presentation skills. Sigh.

And guess what. Two laser pointers ran out of battery yesterday. One was mine. It died before the presentation. The other belonged to chong jie. It too died DURING my presentation. I almost fainted when i saw the light getting dimmer and dimmer.

But nevertheless, I was very touched to see many of my friends coming to my talk. Especially qing yao and kanghao. Maybe they understood less than half of what I was saying, but nevertheless, they were there to support me. And they were one of the earliest to come into the room. chong jie came down all the way from NIE to attend my talk. alon skipped number theory lecture for my talk. And many others who purposely stayed back after their morning lessons. Others came during their breaks in between lessons.

I borrowed the attendance list from my supervisor. I felt really fortunate when I looked at the list.

Frankly speaking, I wished sauwai was there as well. Not that she could really appreciate my talk 100%, but because, she's one of my closest friend in nus. I felt something missing when she wasn't around.

Now that the presentation is over, I can relax for a moment. Catch up on my tutorials and stuff. And work hard on my thesis again. My lecturer once said, a successful person isn't someone who doesn't make mistakes, he is one who learns from mistakes and never make them again. Haha. My lecturer is so inspiring sometimes. I'll form a fan club for him soon. :)

What a long entry today. All on academic stuff again. Haha. Of course personal stuff are more interesting to readers. But ever since four years ago, I've stopped mentioning that. I just don't want things to backfire again. Because of one comment you made, someone else might blame you, curse you, hate you for many years. And who knows, that someone might be just waiting for your comment, in order to use that as an excuse to leave you. Such a person deserved to be condemned. But you'll not know the pain of condemning someone who was once closest to you.
The condemn isn't out of hatred. It's because I find no reason for me to forgive.

Friends were saying, as a girl, I need not appear strong and calm all the time. I should give people the chance to protect me instead. I can't. If I allow myself to be weak, things and responsibilites which I've been trying to uphold for a long time may stumble down. And who is going to pick them all up again? That's none other than me myself. I don't see potential candidates in offering me the protection. And over the years, I keep sourcing for ways to be stronger, but not looking for protection.

okok, I think I've said enough. Time to go back to my tutorials. :)