I bet, from now on, I'll be the seniors' suan-ing target during lunch time. The minute two or more of them get together, they'll start yet another suan-ing session. And they looked really excited when they successfully made me blushed. Argh. Now they claimed, they find suan-ing me natural.

As long as they don't go overboard, I'll be fine. They're stressed. So if suan-ing is an entertainment for them, then let it be. Though I still hope, someone can save me. Two ways, either by coming an easier or so called more natural target for them to attack, or, by defending me when the rest suan me. :)

And now that I've gotten the application form for the masters programme, I began to have doubts bout applying. It's about weighing my interest against that of responsibilities. One very practical issue is, I won't get a higher salary with a masters degree. I know it is possible to complete the course within one year, but it's going to be tough. So without sufficient interest, it's going to be a struggle. A struggle without incentives at the end of it.

I haven't filled up the form yet. Have until december to do so.

Who shall be my second referee?

I guess all these thoughts aren't going to do my cold any good. So wait till I recover.

But guess what, I got 86/100 for my econs test. So unbelievable right. Haha. So now I think I shouldn't have big problem passing this module. It isn't all that fantastic. Because about 25% of the students got 86 and above. But since I only need to pass, being in the first quartile is good enough. Because I've low expectation for this module, I'm happy when I do better than expectation.

For most of my other modules, I can only be relieved when I do well. And this really explains my sadness over the lebesgue integration test last semester when I just passed. But then, although the high expectation I set upon myself does bring me stress, but as long as this stress doesn't make me unhappy, it's fine. :)

'Potter' is scared of not getting any offer from the top universities for his graduate studies. Another is working hard, getting A+ for his math modules is only a norm. To me, their worries are perfectly valid. These worries don't apply to me, because I'm not them. Each of us is just trying to maximize our potential and abilities to achieve the most possible, in the process, it's natural to feel stress. Stress isn't restricted to the brighter ones, neither is it restricted to the not so bright ones. As friends, we aren't able to fully comprehend what the other is doing and feeling. But we can be understanding, we can give each other support. :)