Glad to see my teacher in nus today. Saw him when I opened the honours library door to go to my supervisor's room. He was about to enter CRA for lesson on graph theory. Hehe. What a coincidence.

I guess, seeing him and talking to him today really makes my day. Because I was stressed by the fact that I'm going to have two presentations next week, I've no idea how to solve the particular graph theory question which I'm supposed to present, what's more, I've forgotten how to find Jacobian, so I gonna dig out my MA1104 lecture notes and read up on it. It's so embarrassing to admit to my supervisor that I've forgotten bout something so fundamental.

Anyway, even though it's just for one hour or so, I'm still glad to have spoken to my teacher. It's good that after so many years, I'm still able to speak to him with absolute trust.

As I was telling him, I wish I know what someone is thinking. But at the same time, I know this isn't the right time to find out. I hope we can lay things out and discuss. But I know, this isn't possible. We're so near, but yet, there's a barrier. We may remove this barrier if one of us take the initiative to speak up what's on our minds. But rationally, this shouldn't be done at this point of time. I was in this dilemma for ten months. And the best way was not to think bout it. It's all up to him. But no matter what, I'll respect his decision. And I'll always thank him for all that he has done.

Even though I can't reach any conclusion of this issue, it's still good to at least voice it out to somebody. Somebody who knows both of us, but will most likely be on my side.

Of course, the right thing to do now is to stop typing, take a shower, and start working on my tutorials.