A stressful driving lesson this afternoon. The instructor kept nagging. According to him, that was to mentally prepare me for naggy examiner during my test. Argh. Sigh. I did all sorts of stupid things when he nagged. The more he nagged, the more things went wrong. I was really glad to get out of the car when the lesson ended. The instructor tried to comfort by saying I drove well. Erm. I mounted kerb thrice. Forgot to check blind spot five times. Didn't accelerate when I went up the slope. Too close behind vehicles. If it's a test, I would have failed.

But, he actually said if I had a bit more luck during my previous test, I would have passed. Errrr....

I thought I could kind of take a break and relax for a while during my driving lesson. On the contrary, it pushed my stress level to its new peak for the week.

Argh.

The email sent by the department telling us to observe the rules and regulations in the honours room wasn't too effective. We still talk. We still laugh. We're still loud. ok, at least, we didn't sing this time round. Haha. I guess, as long as we don't go overboard and turn the room into some disco or noise pollute the whole building (though we're already noise polluting the room and the corridor), the department may just have to close one eye. Because the room now serves as a gathering place for the honours students. To think that some of the students actually survived their last three years of their university educations, having less than ten friends (including hi-bye ones), I somehow feel that we should make use of this last year to know each other. In the process of interaction, noise is just unavoidable.

Haha. I'm just trying to find excuse for making noise. Still, I hope to get to know all the other 50+4+1 applied/pure mathematics honours students by the end of the year. I know 27 of them. 28 more to go. Shall start with people from my matrix computation class. :) That shouldn't be too difficult, since they've just laughed at me on monday. My "orgonal" matrix (I meant orthogonal). And my super shocked expression when the lecturer commented that I've done much more than he expected.

I miss friends from my junior batches, as well as those who have graduated. And those who I no longer get to attend lessons with. And seniors. The times we took bus 95 home after lessons. The times we laughed during lectures and tutorials. The times we teased each other. The times at science canteen. The times we passed paper messages to each other during lectures. The list goes on... ... Thanks to all these people who gave me such wonderful memories.

Despite feeling all so stressed up, I must admit, the times we spent together in the honours room for the past few weeks had greatly brightened up my days. :)

Feeling so much better after typing such a long entry. It's time to go and work on my tutorial again. I'm beginning to get the right momentum. Thus the dip in stress level as compared to last week. I remember those speeches during commencement ceremonies. The graduates thanked their family and friends on stage for their support over the years, in particular for their honours year. Now I understand. This last year is a stressful one for most of us.