Been a week since my previous entry. Too busy, too stressed in the past few days. I started feeling better only today. I guess, I just have to take things easy. With the difficult modules, HYP, coming driving test, my tuition kid's coming promos, they all seemed to suffocate me in the past few days. I've high expectations. I've to maintain some so called reputation.

But I think, since I can't escape from them, I've to live with them, happily. Because happy or not, I gonna face all the problems.

I wished, I've more help. I wished, I've more encouragement from people around me. I wished to have more care and concern. I wished, people can be less blunt in their comments. I wished, people can show better appreciation.

But I eventually stopped wishing, because this is probably an infinite sequence of wishes. If I'm really deprived of care, concern, encouragement, sympathy, etc. I can always cry out loud. I'm quite sure I'll be showered with some of those. The thing is, because I've survived three years of school without shedding a single drop of tear, I don't wanna do so in my last year. Also, I guess, I'm at where I'm, being who I'm, because I've received the optimum amount of help. Too much of which I'll probably be more dependent. Too little of which, I would probably have given up on a lot of things by now.

It is my own duty to make myself happy. :)

Received this email from math department, requesting us to keep our volume down in the honours room. I'm guilty of contributing to the noise volume. Haha. The email was sent this morning, so they weren't really targeting at the noise I made, since I wasn't making noise in the past one week. Today is just a different story. :)

Quite amazed by the number of people I got to see today. Just a quick recall, I saw hin when I reached LT9 in arts, had lecture with xiujuan in the LT, went back to science, when the lift door opened, I saw terence -wave-, thomas -slightly more enthusiastic wave-, faizal -even more enthusiastic wave-, victor -most enthusiastic wave-, went to the honours library, made noise at xiujuan while erasing my wrong solution, faizal came in to talk, went for lunch with the two plus luyi, approaching the canteen saw hanxiong, while making noise at him saw yahong -wave again-,... ..., back at the honours room, saw nicholas -wave-, saw tkm on my way to the toilet, but the timing wasn't right for me to wave, BUT, i met him face to face on my way back -wave plus hello plus hi- , lesson and more noise making in the honours room, ... ... , and lastly, I saw wanlin at the mrt station.

Talked and waved too much today. But this is to make up for the lost when I was feeling stressed in the past few days.